.Thursday, November 26, 2009
The Skulls...
hey PEEPos !
feel like dying coz cannot use comp yesterday. but nvm, i need to sarcrifise for my BELOVED grandma. well, yesterday, my mum woke me up at 6.30am. omigosh. i felt like i was going to school mann ! argh, nevermind. bathe & changed. at 7.40am like that, went to my grandma's house. damn2 a lot of people. i went in to my grandma's room, where the body was placed. sigh* she still looked like she was still sleeping. i cried a bit. i went outside and met my cousins and nephews. they were crying. especially Kak Inah & Kak Sheqin.
hmm, at about 9.30am, 2 ladies came and helped to clean up my grandma's body. how to say eh? in malay it is called, " tukang mandi mayat." they bathe so long seh. like 2hours? skipped that part. 2hours later, my grandma's body was carried out and placed at the living room. people crowd around and paid thier last respect. i couldnt kissed her for the last time. i regretted. there were hell loads of people in the house. not fair! my brother had the chance to kiss her for the last time. ARGH ! then what eh..... oh yeah, the guys prayed before leaving to go to cemetery. i waited at the void deck with my cousins. i couldnt control my feelings as my grandma's body was placed into the van. when we reached at the cemetery, i went near to a hole where my grandma's body was going to be buried in. my dad and 2 of my uncles went down the hole and carried the body to be placed in. it was kind of 'EWW' coz i saw millipede & some other insects.
then, after my dad and my uncles placed my granny's body in the hole, the 3 man went up and the body was covered with loads of sand. not really a sand. it's like, a harden sand. so yeah, people were still crying & sobbing. & me, the same lurh. THANKS Kak Sheqin for giving me 2 packets of tissue(: sigh* i sprinkled some flowers on my grandma's grave. it is really, heartbreakening to loss someone you love and adore. i always think that i am dreaming. i dunno why. it seems like, i'm in another world. but actually, it happened and my BELOVED granny is forever gone. when everything was done at the cemetery, we went back to grandma's house. changed clothes and ate a bit. everyone seems tired. i dunno what exactly happened urh, but, Kak Sheqin, Kak Raihana and me went to grandma's room and slept. same goes to my other cousins. we were like DEAD. especially Abang Adi. he slept at 2+ pm until going to 7pm then he woke up. LOL. so after Maghrib, had a family gathering. Uncle Alias recite some prayers and then, all of us ate together. Okay, i'm going to be a bit busy these few days. there will be more family gathering for 7 days straight over at my grandma's house. 7 DAYS STRAIGHT. wow, so that means, i will hv more time spend with my nephews and cousins but less time on the comp.
but it's okay. sometimes, i will just have to sarcrifise for my LOVED ones(:
but whatever it is, i still misses my granny. this year Hari Raya Haji, the Family will not have the chance to celebrate with her. i still remember what she said when she was hospitallized. she said that she will come back before Hari Raya Haji and celebrate with all of us. she even asked my aunty to make some kuih for her. how touching. but sadly, all gone already seh. :( i will keep these each and every words in my mind. before my grandma left, she said to me something in the hospital. she looked at me and hold my hand. she said, " Jangan lupa solat tau. belajar rajin2 untuk masa hadapan kau. jangan lawan cakap ibu dan ayah kau, dengar aper yang dorang cakap. jangan lupakan nyaie."
URGH! her words are damn touching to me. insyaallah, i'll keep those sentence in my mind. (:
in 3 hours time, my family and i are off to her house for 'kenduri' again. i truly miss you Nyaie....
